I really don’t feel well these days. Both physically and mentally.
I used to be a strong guy, in and out, but well, I do have my ‘down’ times. When these happen, I undergo some sort of ‘maintenance mode’. =)
I felt tired when I am working. I used to be passionate and eager to learn when the mechanics had their training beside me, but now I am so tired that I don’t even bother to listen, I just repeat the same (scanning) movement.
I felt tired when I came online, which is VERY unusual. I used to be very passionate when I am online, and I am not the kind of person who have nothing to do online and tell all his/her contacts in MSN that he/she is boring. I used to be the person who have endless stuffs to do online, but now I had a sudden leakage of my passion toward the web. I am even lazy to update this blog.
I am having a weird feeling towards the result. I know I wouldn’t score well in it, but still, I hope the result come out faster, as I hate to wait. It’s a fate, the result wouldn’t change, so, why not? I really don’t like to wait, I want to get my result faster, so I can adjust my mood/feelings and arrange stuffs.
I felt very unproductive these days, which somehow leads to my depression in some time of my days. I don’t like to be useless.
Probably it’s time for me to meet a few friends and have some talks. =)
Currently, my only ‘cure’ is my novel (Shen Diao Xia Lu), and YiFei. =) I feel happy/excited/energetic only when I am reading the book, or listening to YiFei’s songs, or looking at YiFei’s photos. I am not kidding, it somehow works that way. I think I somehow created a ‘virtual lover’ in myself, the YiFei in the drama (Shen Diao Xia Lu), and ’she’ somehow ‘cures’ me in some ways.
Am I crazy? Maybe. At least I am not hurting anyone.
I love these blue-footed ‘boobies’! =D And I am sure Roxine will love them as well! =DI first learned about these cute creatures from Wikipedia, last year, when I stumble across article about an archipelago in Northwest of South America, 
