Vagabond’s Caravan

This afternoon, I went to the stadium for fencing training with Tiong, YiChing and WeiHon (Kelvin injured himself during tennis, I think). Well, this whole fencing thing turn out to be merely pressure and burden for me these days, due to the Brunei Fencing Championship which we would be participating in.

YiChing and Kelvin are progressing fast, providing that their group let them spar a lot (spar means playing with full equipments), and they’re gaining experience. Where as for me, I haven’t even spar once, until today (and Tiong was the one who asked the people to let me and him spar). I felt so… isolated and noob there. I hate this kind of feeling.

I am very outgoing and friendly when my friends are around me, but when I don’t have any friends to backup me, I become very ‘pengecut’ - something like shy and coward. And when I say “friends to backup me”, I mean a lot of them, like 10 or so, haha. I tend to be very brave, outgoing and friendly in two conditions only:

• when none of my friends are around(since everyone is stranger for me, I can just give it a go, eg. in computing class, I have no problem presenting to the class at all);
• and when a lot of my friends are around.

So I don’t dare to ask he people to let me spar lo (I keep on assuming that they’ll think I am a noob who don’t deserve to spar, haha, that’s so not ‘ingsiang’, haha, I mean that isn’t the usual me.)

In conclusion, I(probably we) feel like we’re aliens there in the fencing thing, urgh. And now I am planning to quit it, but I felt bad about bringing problems to my group as I must be in the game (because my name is already in it). If I just quit like this, my team will lose points (I think), and I don’t want to bring problems to Fizi(My team leader) too. Fizi is a great guy, and he had been coaching WeiHon all this while. He can’t lend me a hand because he’s epee, and he knows nothing about sabre, which is the weapon me, Tiong and Kelvin chose.

However, sparring was quite fun but I felt so blur. When you are sparring, you lose all your senses: your vision, your hearing (when you are hit on the mask/head, a very loud ‘pok’ sound will practically stun you), your smell (the mask is smelly enough to cover all the other smells, haha, kidding tho, I don’t really mind it) and touch (for sabres, we need to wear 3 layers of clothes: the plastron which protects part of our chest, the jacket and the metallic jacket). So yea, I totally don’t know what I was doing when I spar with Tiong, I don’t know why the girl scold me, and when Ching praise me, I don’t know what’s so cool either, lol. =S

Well, I hope you guys wouldn’t have problem reading this post, I am not good in expressing my feelings in English, LoL. I nearly type this post in Chinese, but well, I am lazy, haha. So yea, until here, see ya.

P.S: Server was down yesterday, due to some spamming on my website (some sort of virus or what leak into my server and start spamming others, I think, and the web host suspended my account). Sheng/Icaras/Osverton will move my account to another server, and I am doing backup now (prepare to move to another server). So, just to let you people know lo, so if you come here, and found this site unavailable, please don’t leave me, hehe. I’ll talk more about this issue in the next post. =)